Thursday, January 19, 2012

Dancing with the DEVIL

Yayyy, i am BACK............dunno if that's a good thing or a sign of regression.......warreva it is though..............I AM BACK ON BLOGSPOT and thats all that counts right now.

Need to tell my fellow bloggers aw much i missed them.....mmmwaaahhh, I however had been following up on all your posts, so i didnt really desert you guys as such.

Have been gone for....ummmm, two years??? and you can be certain a whole lot has gone down with me within that period.......every part of my life has been turned inside out, on all levels. Would have loved to be blogging about my proposed wedding/engagement or even my pretty baby, but well.....that will prolly be my year end titles(insert huge smile).

Yea! Yea! Yea! I can hear you all screaming "cut the chase gurl and tell us about the devil and the dance".................lol.

Ladies and gentemen, boys and girls, I have been dancing wild with the devil.....in all forms and manner, name it guys.......we salsad, tangoed, ballet and even did a bit of disco.......
Hmmm, now you wanna know what the devil looks like......"Is he as ugly as media depicts, with horns and tail?".....................lol.....................

Ok! back to 2012, I have loved and lost AGAIN.......I have gambled with my heart, yet again and as usual, got LOST in the game and in playing that game I almost allowed the devil lure my soul to hell...................CUT!!!! Story for another day....(Insert evil grin)

Enough of heart breaks and love, let's discuss interesting things..............happier times......

In the last two years, I have seen the world(well, three continents), peeps, was it cool????? I have made friends from around the globe, lived a carefree but happily peaceful life.....................Did i just say "LIVE!!!" yup I have lived then I woke up and realised "What!!! I will be 28 next birthday!!!!" and i suddenly feel like I have lost a substantial part of my youth.

I had my "Age 28" goals and i stil havent achieved them.

THE GOALS:
To be happily married
To have two kids
To have floated my business
To be comfotable

Sigh!!! I gotta go now................got that "talk/meeting" with my "business patner" may just achieve those goals from the bottom up this year...

Nways, will talk to you all lata.

Much love

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

NO MORE PAINS

Last week Friday started on a good note, no pains, no tears, no worries, no premonition of the news to come.

The day went well too, a pro-salah parry on my floor at work.....guess who the service gal was??? yup! moi! wrinkling nose!!!! but i enjoyed it. It reminded me of cinderella story, u know, d gal on her skating shoes, breathlessly serving customers and still not meeting up.............sigh!! smiles!!! noice parry all d same.............................lotsa things to munch on and drink.

The beginnings of the night wasnt bad either, decided to stay over at a colleague's place, she came to pick me and voila!!! jetted off to her estate.............nice place and a good friend........... Then the call came in and guess who????????????????? EX!!!!!! yes!!! was as surprised as you are, very surprised!! So surprised i muttered............."EX??"......... Then

EX........hi unguardedheart

Unguardedheart..................hi ex

Ex......................................where are you?

Unguardedheart.................at a friend's place, chilling

Ex................................where exactly?

Unguardedheart(a lil guarded)..............in an estate on d island, way after lekki phase 2

Ex.....................oh! why? u aint hanging out?

Unguardedheart...........................nope, car's bad.........so chilling with a friend

Ex...................................remember, i said i had gist for you (refer back to raw pain)

Unguardedheart................o sure, thats true!!! sup?

Ex..............................you are one of the people that really means well for me and wants good things for me, so i thot i shld definitely tell u this.......... (By now, moi was all guarded and edgy...................)

Ex......................my gal friend then got pregnant and i decided to marry her.........

Unguardedheart (gleefully)....................waow!!!! i'm so happy for you

Ex.......................she put to bed yesterday

Unguardedheart(with feigned joy)...........................really?? thats so sweet........male or female??

Ex(with obvious pride and joy)...............................female, she looks like me

Unguardedheart.............o, that's cute.......

Ex................thanks. We had our registry last week and the society wedding is in february

Unguardedheart.................thats so good to hear

Ex......................would ave told you b4 now but i guess i was a lil scared

Unguardedheart(irritably)..................of what??????????? durhhhhh (definitely, his conscience has got him with daggers)

Ex....................I dont know............how are you? (how am i supposed to be?)

Unguardedheart(feigning a giggle).....................................i'm very well, thank you

Ex.............hope you will keep calling me (like i still was)

Unguardedheart....................sure, why not.............

B*A*S*T*A*R*D

Sent him a text the next day, telling him ow happy i am about his news, that i'm certain the baby must be as cute as a pin, that i'm glad he's finally tying the knuptial knot and i truly wish him the best.......... sigh!!!!!
what more can a girl do???

blowing you all big fat kisses
xoxo

Thursday, September 10, 2009

GIST TIME


Got gist o..... my peeps........


Some friends and I went to Deola Sagoe's shop at ajose, my friend needed to book an appointment with her to help clothe her models for a new hairline she's launching. Ave always heard gist about the woman being nasty, saucy bla bla bla. Nways, we got in and met this long faced, cold looking woman who was sppose to be the shop attendant and some women (prolly customers or friends). We looked around at some of her clothes then went upstairs to see some more designs. While we were shopping, miss.long face was gisting away on her phone, so we decided 2 ave some fun and take pics...............wen miss.long face finally had our time and saw us snapping away....................she almost had an attack, her face turned purple as she hissed "we dont allow pics here", with my sweetest smile and most innocent face i was like "o! really? i didnt know that, so sorry" Miss. long face was really pissed, she almost snatched my phone from me wen she said "pls delete the ones you have taken". Yea right!!!!!! lol

Anyway, we ended up not booking appointment o, as she said we needed 10k to book an appointment (na wa o) just to talk to Deola............(Son of a ....). The woman literarily threw us out as she was so eager to see our back. We then heard her growling away to d guard...........wonder who still does business with them sef.


On a lighter note that pics is one of the outfit i saw there, waow!! really loved it but 75K??? what???


Nways, ave got at least a wedding in each month of what's left of the year, plus all my friends are on my case to get hooked. Since a nos of dem is tying the knuptial knot, they think its their responsibility to get me hooked. Now, ave got loads of gals turning in "adorable" geez, regardless of the fact that ave got a BF. Wouldnt blame them though, cos d heart belongs to he who likes it enough to put a ring on it (smiles)(pouts)(winks)...............


This month, i will be a floor guest at one, then a brides maid at another(yea, said i wldnt be a bmaid again, cos i dnt wanna be 27dresses............sigh!!! but wat can i do wen they ask??? sighs!!!(heavily)............), then gotta help another pick her gown, and be a chiefo at anothers.......(eye rolling!!!).


The unit change doesnt look promising again, BF insisted i tell my boss, so i did and the man turned up a brick wall.....................insisted i aint leaving his unit...............dont know if that's good or bad, sigh!!!!!


Help!!!!!! my car has been farting of late and jerks a lil b4 starting, dont know wat the problem is, someone says caburator needs servicing, ama gather some doe to attend to that................there really cant be romance without finance cos my expenses are eye popping!!!


There's this young man that has been bothering me cos he likes a friend of mine................phew!!!! ama dislike wen guys cant do their love runs themeselves............already told the chic he likes her, what more does he want from me..................hisss!!!!!!!!! abegi, limme jo.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Here's the morrow

These words from "Heart of worship" by Micheal.W.Smith keeps playing in my mind:

When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart
Bridge:
I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what
You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart
Chorus:
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry,
Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus

Have a listen: http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?vi

Have been working hard on my relationship with God, ave decided to go back to the heart of worship, cos its all about the big one up there that gave us all life and the ability to use it effectively. Also thinking about the best thing to give God for giving me so much (although, i still cant get the reason why he allows the heartbreak, the pains). I do belive however that he blesses the expectant heart and this heart is pregnant.


P.S. This blogging rules and regulations is getting way too much for my liking..............haba! wats the use for xtra caution since most of us are anonymous!!!!!!!!!! phewww!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Raw pain

Hi, you all. Thot of keeping this to me, infact been keeping the pain within but truth is, i gotta share it with you guys..................i need your advises, your consolation, your love.................u get?

Facebook is an official heartbreaker, believe me, its broken countless hearts that i know of and now its added mine to the list. K, to be honest..................the heart was already broken it was just smashed to splitters, fragments all over again.

Beginning, ex called me up sometime last week, wen i was on leave. Sleepy eyed and all, picked up the call to realise it was him..........said he needed jobs for his siblings....regular gists....then "u aint someone i shldnt tell this"............................o, wat will that be? said he couldnt say it over the phone we had to meet up. Kept aving issues hooking up, till work resumed on mon. So, i gave up asking him and decided to snoop around a lil on facebook..........................................

Engaged to miss o.o........................waow...................never saw this coming......yea, i got a guy of my own now and we've been seperated for a year now................but!!!!! wanted to be the one hooking up first, not him................................feel the whole thing is just unfair, makes it seem like he actually didnt wrong me at all and rather i'm the unfavored one. Like the man up there is telling me something, like he's saying "gal u were a fool and he was right all along"..........................yea yea yea, i don't want a pity party, just felt like airing my feelings.

It also seems like things are going from bad to worse, like ave made a bad decision (career wise). Been complaining of boredom in my present unit, was thinking of changing units...........................change has come, ave given my word, buttttttttttttt, change is marketing............ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!! dont think i'm ready for that in this global recession period.

Peace out

see u all in d morrow.

Friday, August 14, 2009

FEEL GOOD

Hey peeps, i'm so happy with all these comments, makes me feel like i'm really not alone and u all are with me...........thanks peeps.

Ever wondered what it takes to be great, as in really make it in life. Ave been sitting here on my pretty derriere, wondering just when i'll hit it BIG and bam!!! i'm made.........sigh!!!! Its so obvious that i cant make it with this my boring 8 to wenever job.......argh! Ama just quit, get married and be a full time housewife......lol. But for real, what do we need to do to make a difference??? How did Eleganza, Otedola, Abiola, Bill Gates etc make it.......how????????? I gotta make it mennnnnnnnn......not necessaily fame but wealthhhh, comfort, wanna afford the bahamas, paris at the snap of my pretty little fingers..............ooooooooooooooo.

On another note, yea, i got a guy and he's really good(at least so far). Mwhile, i kinda like this guy at work, pretty cute and MAD..........yea, MAD............but???? of cos, i wont do it..........as much as i wanna.........sigh!!!!!!! (Eh! dont ask me who now))

My friend is taking the holy walk 2morrow and i'm spending the night with her and freinds in a hotel........truth is ama gonna look GOOD, come chek me out...........my beautiful, short gown and gold feathery hatlike stuff (cant recall the name now) anyway, ama gonna look GOOD, trust me.

My guy's janding tomorrow.............no feelings at all(for now). He'll be back in three weeks.

Was reading sun and saw this article on fab moms, u know moms with real cute figure after dropping.....hmmmm!!!! Demi Moore!! beats them all flat. will prolly load pics next time, i blog(not promising anything yet o). Yea, i know loads of surgeries most ave gone down, but good is good and she looks good (My mom also looks fab at her age, bliv me).

Sweethearts, ama leave here now, will def miss u all.

Love ya .

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

POSTS FROM A PAST LIFE

Just thinking of the song "dirty diana" by MJ and i'm wondering why anyone shld be referred to as "dirty". I've always considered myself to be liberal minded but its looking like the liberalism is getting in the way of common sense.........what???????? The human mind just wonders at times, thinking of all sorts of rot...........imagine me advising some gal to cheat on her BF (what? am i like crazy?) no, i aint(she wanted to hear it), was about preaching about the good act and she kinda looked like........"eh! she a preacher now?", well told her to just do it, but within boundaries(wonder wat that is).

Am i contented with where i am now? Am i okay, happy with my new bloke, does my life make me happy?
SCREAMMMMMMMMMMM!!! my pretty head is a lil noisy right now, its so loud in there, i'm getting scared. Is this what being disturbed means? or is the noise normal? You know, i can hear a million and one thots all at the same time..........i feel like i'm going crazy or just plain UNHAPPY.