Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Raw pain

Hi, you all. Thot of keeping this to me, infact been keeping the pain within but truth is, i gotta share it with you guys..................i need your advises, your consolation, your love.................u get?

Facebook is an official heartbreaker, believe me, its broken countless hearts that i know of and now its added mine to the list. K, to be honest..................the heart was already broken it was just smashed to splitters, fragments all over again.

Beginning, ex called me up sometime last week, wen i was on leave. Sleepy eyed and all, picked up the call to realise it was him..........said he needed jobs for his siblings....regular gists....then "u aint someone i shldnt tell this"............................o, wat will that be? said he couldnt say it over the phone we had to meet up. Kept aving issues hooking up, till work resumed on mon. So, i gave up asking him and decided to snoop around a lil on facebook..........................................

Engaged to miss o.o........................waow...................never saw this coming......yea, i got a guy of my own now and we've been seperated for a year now................but!!!!! wanted to be the one hooking up first, not him................................feel the whole thing is just unfair, makes it seem like he actually didnt wrong me at all and rather i'm the unfavored one. Like the man up there is telling me something, like he's saying "gal u were a fool and he was right all along"..........................yea yea yea, i don't want a pity party, just felt like airing my feelings.

It also seems like things are going from bad to worse, like ave made a bad decision (career wise). Been complaining of boredom in my present unit, was thinking of changing units...........................change has come, ave given my word, buttttttttttttt, change is marketing............ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!! dont think i'm ready for that in this global recession period.

Peace out

see u all in d morrow.

3 comments:

  1. Aww pele. U're not alone. I can definitely relate but this too sha pass. We can't work on other peoples time. This might not help much [lol trust me i've been there] so i'll stop preaching.

    Take heart sha. It has nothing to do with you as a person. It doesn't mean you're the 'wrong' one. It might seem like karma is on vacation but don't even sweat it or try not it...what you're feeling is normal but this too shall pass.

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  2. "...the one hooking up first,..." happeneth to all in due time.

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